The truth is that I draw at least partially because I feel like I should, as it's one of the few skills I have and I would like to get better at it. I do enjoy being creative and have often felt inspired by pieces of art, whether it's illustration, fine art, animation, music, books, films, games or any other medium of expression. It makes me want to create as well.

However, there are many times where I feel like it's all kind of pointless. Making art or consuming it feels like it's just one of the many things people have made up to distract themselves from reality, even though it might be one of the more meaningful things to do in this day and age. While I used to find a lot of meaning in art, I struggle with that these days. Regardless of all that, though, I'm not sure what else I would do with my life right now, so I feel like I might as well just go with this for the time being. Maybe through art itself I can find some meaning in the process of creating it.

I value honesty, truth and authenticity and would like to reflect that in my work. I want to be as honest with myself and others as possible. Why? Maybe because I want to be free from pretending and I want to stop caring about what others might think. It just feels pointless to pretend, absurd even.

I'm a perfectionist, for better or worse. Worse because it can be really difficult for me to start working on something when the bar I tend to set for myself is so high, knowing it probably won't live up to my expectations. Better because when I do actually work on something I like to put a lot of thought and effort into it, including the small details.

I'm a pretty insecure person, in general and when it comes to my work. Again because I set the bar pretty high for myself and because I tend to compare my work to others who are much better than me and who work much harder. I often get praised for my work, which I appreciate, but at the same time I know that my work is not that great. Even if it might look nice, a lot of it lacks any kind of real foundation. I think I have a decent sense of aesthetics, so I usually just follow my instincts to try and make something look decent, rather than using knowledge of fundamentals like anatomy, colour etc. But of course that has it's limits. I often struggle to create what I want, which can be frustrating.